I am having a pretty good day. I have had outside issues, but I am literally not letting them bother me. They are beyond my control and I can’t do much about any of it.

I am trying my best to worry less. I’m trying to give it all up to a higher power. That’s difficult though because I feel more secure thinking I’m in control of things.

My life has been a struggle. I have no family other than the ones I’ve grown and the ones I’ve collected over the years. I do have an active imagination though and have wonderful conversations when I’m not around humans. I also, very much, enjoy spending time with just myself. So I’m not feeling lonely there.

I was struggling recently with a stressful situation and was feeling depressed. I held on through it however, and now that it’s ended, I feel okay again.

I’ve also recently spent time with old friends. All visits were eye opening and made me appreciate my life more. I don’t always see how wonderful it is. I’m not so arrogant as to say it’s perfect, but so often I find myself living a life that others can only talk about wanting. It makes me fully appreciate things to walk in someone’s shoes. I do that mostly by listening and trying to give honest opinion and advice. I try to imagine my life as their’s. Life can be so difficult, but it’s mostly full of gratitude.

I feel okay physically. An old injury resurfaced, but it’s alright. I wear my brace less and less and I am learning how to walk again properly. Crazy how fast the mind adjusts to walking funny, so it’s time to relearn. My weight is under control and is settled, at the moment, at an amount that it has always felt most comfortable.

Of the friends I’ve been out with, all seem to be really struggling with mental health issues. Two admit to being on drugs to try to control it. One is dying of cancer. One can barely walk. One is balding and dilusional. One can’t seem to get life together at all. So it makes me grateful for my health, for my life.

I go to the doctor soon to confirm things, but it’s still a few weeks away. I am going to get most everything checked. Make sure I bring a list. Make sure I bring a pen and paper to take notes. If any medication is suggested, if any illnesses present themselves, I want to be prepared. Nature is a wonderful medicine chest, and I’d like to go there first.

So this update is long winded, but is a way I can have an accurate collection of how I’ve been doing and how I am now. It’s also nice to just have this electronic diary of my experiences and thoughts.

So there ya go folks, so far so good.