I had seen Tajiya of Islam Guru Muhammad Sahab in Muharram and had read about him in my school books but did not see his procession I wanted to see but my brothers did not let me see saying that there was too much crowd It happens that you will not be able to see their mourning

Then I got married, I had two children, I came to know that Muharram procession takes place in Kolkata also nearby, Kolkata has a large Muslim population, so a huge procession takes place there.

I expressed my desire to see that procession to my father-in-law, then my father-in-law said that you will have to see this procession continuously for three years, you cannot go to your maternal house on the day of Muharram, you should see it thrice, I agreed.

Now I was waiting for that day finally that day has come it was time for the procession at 1 o’clock I got my two children ready and went there with my father in law and sister in law’s family I thought maybe these people would be dancing after all what’s in it

At that time the internet had not spread that much, I did not even have a phone, even then it was very small.

The boys were playing the drums, one of my children was also watching very carefully.

Only then a black decorated horse came out from there everyone was feeding him jalebis and was loving me I was afraid to go near him he was a very big horse looking at everyone with big eyes a special kind of expression in his eyes I also touched her, my children also fed her a jalebi.

Now in a short while I saw that everyone was very sad and was beating his chest in black and white clothes.

Now the boys were mourning, drawing blood by stabbing their hands and chest with blades. Some were walking on fire, some were killing themselves with their chains,

The whole atmosphere had changed, everyone was sad, because on this day Muhammad Sahib was martyred, so everyone was mourning, people stained with blood, a huge crowd of people, I felt as if I had come to another world.

For the first time I saw everyone crying and bloodshed, some people were using swords, the whole army of police was standing there.

Now I was also emotional, my children were also standing silently, I have never seen so many flags, their number will be up to 2000.

About 1 lakh people will join that crowd, well, I also started feeling sad, I thought that what a great soul he is, who is still mourned by Muslims on his martyr’s day.

Well I went to my home and used to observe Muharram with my father-in-law and all the people continuously for three years now my house is far away so I don’t go