First of all, my blessings and best wishes to all of you.

I could not get everything in life that I wanted very much. It is never good to blame others.

When we don’t get something we like, it’s because of us.

The biggest thing is that we do not have the determination to achieve whatever we want and we stop our work midway.

Whatever I wanted, I would give my share of things to my younger brothers and sisters and give them my share of things and they would eat theirs and also mine.

I had no power to resist. I was timid and always afraid of taking risks.

I was not combative and would sit aside for a while.

Secondly, I used to forgive very quickly anyone who hurt me.

I couldn’t express my feelings to anyone and perhaps that’s why I didn’t get the happiness in life that was in my destiny.

Why I fell behind is because I didn’t run with the times and I didn’t fight to get what I wanted

I was of shy nature, due to shyness I never let my husband express any desire. I used to look at him but whenever he looked at me, I would lower my gaze.

I had some desires inside me which I suppressed myself. My husband used to ask me if I don’t have any desires. My shyness and hesitation did not let me even go near my husband.

Now whether someone calls it my values or my nature

But since I lived with my husband, time passed and he taught me that I should fulfill my heart’s desire but still I hesitate but by living with him I realized that I no longer have to suppress my desires. Needed

Now I have changed a lot, people say that in a city like Kolkata, there has been a lot of change in my thinking, I no longer care about others but I should care about my family.

Now I take care of my family instead of people and by the grace of God I don’t have to struggle for anything. My husband immediately understands my inner desire.